Why cannot I not push aside the feeling of dread that sits in the pit of my stomach? It is the people pleaser part of me. The part that does not like to feel they have let anyone down or feel like I'm trouble. In this case, I do feel I have let the person down. I should have been on top of the situation. Instead I let my personal life get in the way. Perhaps this why I feel so bad now and worrying day and night. The ridiculous thing is, ultimately I cannot control the situation or the outcome. Everything I do now is just to try my best to resolve it and quickly. I need to let it go - to do the things I can do and stop the constant thinking, worrying and over thinking regarding what is outside my control. I know this is causing me undue stress - I am not sleeping, have the knot in my stomach, feel the exhaustion and fog in my brain. Worse still is the part of me that wants to flee, to take flight. Looking for new jobs. This doesn't fix anyt...
The postscript to my personal journey as an intra-country adoptee.