Postcards from Thailand - Postscript

 I've woken up with mixed feelings. It's hard to recognise and own that I am now well into my 40's.  Next year is the big 50! How has half a century passed by? There is still so much to do and I feel that I am only now starting to come into my own.  I have to remind myself that I'm not a timid unsure girl. That I have voice, deserve respect and capable of anything.  The tiny voice inside still brings back the anxiety and the inner child, terrified of their own shadow.  I am a work in progress and I want to build a life for myself that will allow me to slow down and one day enter into retirement without a heavy financial stress.  For now I'm focussing on being comfortable being alone. I still think about him daily and wish I didn't. But I'm proud of what I've achieved in the almost 3 months since we split. Completed my first knitting project, attended another book club event and spent several weekends home in my own company.  Been having a lot of strang...

 Well it's 2025. I'm not one to make resolutions or to do a dry Jan challenge.  Instead I use this month to reset, review and continue moving forward. In 2024 I took up and re-started hobbies and achieved the following: Blogging, back into this as a form of journaling Attended my first book club meeting and booked into the Jan event Got back into reading Changed PT and have been consistent Took up knitting - all the lessons from childhood are coming back and it's relaxing Reconnected via FB with old friend Made the highest commission in my 7 years Received gratitude from my boss Committed to my natural greying hair Completed two solo adventure challenges Have achieved over 10K in savings  Instigated and attended neighbours drinks Finally made it to Europe Made peace with my solo status Managed mum's status and situation I'm really proud of myself. It's taken me so many years to feel this comfortable in my skin and my life. This is one of the first new year's...